"How did I let Donatello talk me into this?" I asked myself. The truth is, I didn't really want to go back to the farmhouse, even though I would like to see m brothers again. Then again, it isn't like I'm going to see *all* of them. If Raph can detach himself from us...

But I shouldn't think like that. We all went our separate ways. It shouldn't surprise me that he seemingly couldn't care less about us anymore.

It tore him up when Splinter died. I swear, that was the *only* time I saw that stubborn idiot cry. He was more broken up than Mike, and poor Mikey was bawling for two days! Thing is, Raph only cried the first day, then holed himself up for the two days after.

I tried my damnedest to keep us together, I really did. But it didn't take long before Raph finally just up and left. I guess it'd been two weeks. We'd barely seen him. Then he disappeared, left in the middle of the night like he usually did... except he never came back. I keep wondering if there was anything that I *could've* done.

Probably not. Atleast he left calmly. We hadn't argued or fought for about a month. I had thought we were co-existing rather well. And then he left. Then I did.

But... I going back. I've decided. I want to see my brothers, April and Casey, and maybe even Shadow again.

I just can't help but wonder where Raphael is.